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Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Author Guest Post: Joshua Graham, Author of Darkroom

In association with Pump Up Your Book! Virtual Book Publicity Tours, Jersey Girl Book Reviews welcomes Joshua Graham, author of Darkroom!




The Ever Changing Life Of A Writer
By Joshua Graham


Just when you think you've learned the ropes and mastered your system, things change. Isn't that just the frustration of life? You can lament the fact that things keep changing and throw your hands up in defeat. Or you can embrace it and use the changes to your advantage. 

As a writer, some things will never change. Writing involves creating characters for stories that challenge them and cause dramatic changes which reveal their true nature. So you always have to come up with the basic elements: character, setting, conflict.

However, one of the things that keep changing is the business of publishing.

There was once a time when in order to get your book published you had to print out all 400+ pages, find the name and mailing address of an editor, type and print out your query letter, your synopsis, your SASE (if you don't know what that is, then you're either a very young writer, or not a writer at all) and pack them all into a box or large enough envelope and drag it down to your local post office.

I remember a year when I submitted about 23 short stories to Pocket Books one year. I sent them all via priority mail, but at $3.75 each, it really added up. And this is not to mention that it took about 30 minutes just to print everything and pack it up. If you were sending a novel to say 10 editors, then the printing time for each manuscript would be about 10 times as long PER copy. 

As you can see, it could easily take an entire day to submit your manuscripts to several editors the old fashioned way. Nothing wrong with this, some editors still insist on this method.

But then things started to change. 

Writers began daring to think outside the proverbial box and break the "rules" and "guidelines" of submission with the hope that their books were good enough to cause the editors to overlook the fact that the submission guidelines were overlooked (e.g. send hardcopy only, no unagented submissions, etc.). They started sending their query packages via email. GASP! Yes, email.

Soon, many editors began to see that this was not only a "green" method, but a more efficient one as well. I used to send paper submissions and got very little response. Not even rejection letters. But as soon as I started sending email queries, I began to get replies within days. Some of them were form rejections, others were requests for full manuscripts, and still others were very encouraging rejections which praised my work, but stated their publishing line was not a good fit based on the genres they publish. 

Eventually, I gave up paper queries altogether. It became an economic impossibility to sustain, and it took way too much time. Most of all, it yielded the least results.

I sent email queries for my book Darkroom and it was eventually acquired by Simon & Schuster / Howard Books and it was published in May 2012. 

This is just one of the many ways the publishing industry has changed. It may not be the most dramatic change, but it has made my life a lot easier. And it works.


About The Author:

WINNER OF 2011 INTERNATIONAL BOOK AWARDS, Amazon.com and Barnes & Noble #1 bestselling author Joshua Graham's novel Beyond Justice is taking the world by storm, one reader at a time. Many of his readers blame him for sleepless nights, arriving to work late, neglected dishes and family members, and not allowing them to put the book down.

Suspense Magazine listed Beyond Justice in its BEST OF 2010, alongside titles by Scott Turow, Ted Dekker, Steven James and Brad Thor.

His short story The Door's Open won the HarperCollins Authonomy Competition (Christmas 2010).

Publisher's Weekly described Beyond Justice as: "A riveting legal thriller ... breaking new ground with a vengeance ... demonically entertaining and surprisingly inspiring."

Joshua Graham grew up in Brooklyn, NY where he lived for the better part of 30 years. He holds a Bachelor and Master's Degree and went on to earn his doctorate from Johns Hopkins University. During his time in Maryland, he taught as a professor at Shepherd College (WV), Western Maryland College, and Columbia Union College (MD).

Today he lives with his beautiful wife and children in Southern California. Several of Graham's short fiction works have been published by Pocket Books and Dawn Treader Press.

Writing under the pen name Ian Alexander, Graham debuted with his first Epic Fantasy novel Once We Were Kings, an Amazon #1 Bestseller in multiple categories and Award-Winning Finalist in the SciFi/Fantasy category of The USA "Best Books 2011" Awards, as well as an Award-Winning Finalist in the Young Adult Fiction category of The USA "Best Books 2011" Awards, and an Award Winner in the 2011 Forward National Literary Awards in the Teen/Young Adult category. Once We Were Kings is available in ebook and hardcover editions.

His next Suspense/Thriller novel, Darkroom (Simon & Schuster/Howard Books) was released on May 1, 2012.





BUY THE BOOK: Darkroom


Book Description: Darkroom


After scattering her mother's ashes in Vietnam, photojournalist Xandra Carrick comes home to New York to rebuild her life and career. When she experiences supernatural visions that reveal atrocities perpetrated by American soldiers during the Vietnam War, she finds herself entangled in a forty-year conspiracy that could bring the nation into political turmoil.

Launching headlong into a quest to learn the truth from her father, Peter Carrick, a Pulitzer Prize Laureate who served as an embedded photographer during the war, Xandra confronts him about a dark secret he has kept - one that has devastated their family.

Her investigations lead her to her departed mother's journal, which tell of love, spiritual awakening, and surviving the fall of Saigon.

Pursued across the continent, Xandra comes face-to-face with powerful forces that will stop at nothing to prevent her from revealing the truth. But not before government agencies arrest her for murder, domestic terrorism and an assassination attempt on the newly elected President of the United States.

Darkroom is a riveting tale of suspense that tears the covers off the human struggle for truth in a world imprisoned by lies.



Darkroom Book Trailer




Darkroom by Joshua Graham


Darkroom by Joshua Graham
Published By: Simon & Schuster/Howard Books
Release Date: May 1, 2012
Format: Paperback - 386 pages / Kindle - 1238 KB / Nook - 2 MB
ISBN: 1451654693
ASIN: B005FLODPC
Genre: Mystery / Suspense / Thriller


About The Author:





WINNER OF 2011 INTERNATIONAL BOOK AWARDS, Amazon.com and Barnes & Noble #1 bestselling author Joshua Graham's novel Beyond Justice is taking the world by storm, one reader at a time. Many of his readers blame him for sleepless nights, arriving to work late, neglected dishes and family members, and not allowing them to put the book down.

Suspense Magazine listed Beyond Justice in its BEST OF 2010, alongside titles by Scott Turow, Ted Dekker, Steven James and Brad Thor.

His short story The Door's Open won the HarperCollins Authonomy Competition (Christmas 2010).

Publisher's Weekly described Beyond Justice as: "A riveting legal thriller ... breaking new ground with a vengeance ... demonically entertaining and surprisingly inspiring."

Joshua Graham grew up in Brooklyn, NY where he lived for the better part of 30 years. He holds a Bachelor and Master's Degree and went on to earn his doctorate from Johns Hopkins University. During his time in Maryland, he taught as a professor at Shepherd College (WV), Western Maryland College, and Columbia Union College (MD).

Today he lives with his beautiful wife and children in Southern California. Several of Graham's short fiction works have been published by Pocket Books and Dawn Treader Press.

Writing under the pen name Ian Alexander, Graham debuted with his first Epic Fantasy novel Once We Were Kings, an Amazon #1 Bestseller in multiple categories and Award-Winning Finalist in the SciFi/Fantasy category of The USA "Best Books 2011" Awards, as well as an Award-Winning Finalist in the Young Adult Fiction category of The USA "Best Books 2011" Awards, and an Award Winner in the 2011 Forward National Literary Awards in the Teen/Young Adult category. Once We Were Kings is available in ebook and hardcover editions.

His next Suspense/Thriller novel, Darkroom (Simon & Schuster/Howard Books) was released on May 1, 2012.




BUY THE BOOK: Darkroom


Disclaimer: I received the book from the author's publisher in exchange for my honest review and participation in a virtual book tour event.

Virtual Book Tour Event: On Wednesday, June 20, 2012, in association with Pump Up Your Book! Virtual Book Publicity Tours, author Joshua Graham participated in a virtual book tour event with an Author Guest Post on Jersey Girl Book Reviews.




Book Description:

After scattering her mother's ashes in Vietnam, photojournalist Xandra Carrick comes home to New York to rebuild her life and career. When she experiences supernatural visions that reveal atrocities perpetrated by American soldiers during the Vietnam War, she finds herself entangled in a forty-year conspiracy that could bring the nation into political turmoil.

Launching headlong into a quest to learn the truth from her father, Peter Carrick, a Pulitzer Prize Laureate who served as an embedded photographer during the war, Xandra confronts him about a dark secret he has kept - one that has devastated their family.

Her investigations lead her to her departed mother's journal, which tell of love, spiritual awakening, and surviving the fall of Saigon.

Pursued across the continent, Xandra comes face-to-face with powerful forces that will stop at nothing to prevent her from revealing the truth. But not before government agencies arrest her for murder, domestic terrorism and an assassination attempt on the newly elected President of the United States.

Darkroom is a riveting tale of suspense that tears the covers off the human struggle for truth in a world imprisoned by lies.



My Book Review: 

Xandra Carrick is an award winning photojournalist for the New York Times. At the age of twenty-seven, she's following in the footsteps of her father, Peter Carrick, a Pulitzer Prize photojournalist who was embedded with the US Army in Vietnam during the war.

Xandra and Peter travel to her mother's birthplace, Vietnam, to honor her dying wish by scattering her ashes. While in Vietnam, Xandra takes pictures using an old camera that Peter had used during the Vietnam War. Upon returning home to New York, she develops the film and sees disturbing paranormal visions of images of death. Stunned by the visions, she uses the camera to take pictures at a local park near her apartment. When she develops the pictures from the park, she sees a body in the pond, so she calls the police to report what she saw in her pictures, but she finds herself arrested for the murder of a young woman, a student at Juilliard. Out on bail, Xandra leaves NY for California in search of answers to the disturbing visions that she saw in the pictures, and she knows that the answers can only come from her father. Can Xandra solve the mystery behind the disturbing visions from Vietnam? Was her father part of a conspiracy while he was stationed in Vietnam? Can she prove that she is innocent of the murder she is accused of, or will someone stop her from revealing the secrets and truth that have long been buried?

Darkroom is a riveting political mystery suspense thriller that will have the reader sitting on the edge of their seat. The story is set in alternating time periods between the present and flashbacks to the Vietnam War, and intriguingly narrated with alternating first person perspectives by different characters. With vivid descriptive scenes and attention to detail, the author transports the reader back to the historic Vietnam War era of political conspiracies, lies and deceptions, atrocities and horrors of war, murder and paranormal happenings.

The author provides a cast of realistic, complex, strong and intriguing variety of characters, and masterly interweaves their individual stories into one heck of a compelling and powerful story. These characters are downright fascinating, and I thought that their varying narrative perspectives provided a realistic element to the storyline.

This intense fast paced suspense thriller is jammed packed with enough action, intrigue, twists and turns that will keep the reader captivated, holding their breath and guessing until the surprising conclusion. If you fancy an intense political thriller with a mixture of family discord and romance thrown in, then Darkroom is the novel for you!


RATING: 5 STARS *****

















Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Author Guest Post: Anita Hughes, Author of Monarch Beach

Jersey Girl Book Reviews welcomes Anita Hughes, author of Monarch Beach!





My Writing Mentor 
By Anita Hughes


Actors give their thanks at the Academy Awards, where they reel out as many names as they can before the music and gorgeous models shoo them off the stage. Writers have their dedications and acknowledgments to applaud the people that helped bring their book to fruition. But there is usually one person - a spouse who ate spaghettio's for years - the actor cannot thank enough without causing the wrath of the Oscar producers, and there is often one individual that the author would have to write a whole book about, to tell them how much they value their support. 

For me, that person is my mother. My mother was a copywriter before she had children and my father was a journalist before he became a businessman. Reading and writing were gospel in our house and literary aspirations were encouraged. But my mother didn't just talk the talk, she spent her time and energy helping me achieve my goals.

When I was fourteen I sat down and wrote a novel. I still remember going over the story with my mother, asking her to read each chapter, making the changes she suggested. In those days, children didn't learn how to use a keyboard before they learned how to ride a bicycle. Typing was something you learned with home economics in high school. My mother typed out the whole manuscript and researched publishers. She went to the post office and sent off two hundred pages (photo copied at a local printer) first class mail, to New York. 

Neither of us could have been more surprised and thrilled when I received a revision letter from a famous editor at Harper & Row. But again, my mother surprised me. She didn't make me do the revisions. She let me make the choice between working on the novel and taking part in all important high school activities like cheerleading. She never remonstrated me for not following through. She was proud that I had gotten that far. 

When I was in college, my mother showed me that you can fulfill your dreams later in life. She researched and wrote a diet and nutrition book that was published by Dutton. I still remember going to Walden's Books and seeing the pyramid of my mother's books in the window. She had spent decades that she could have been writing being a wife and mother, but eventually she achieved her goal. (If I do a search, I can still find her Kirkus review!)

My mother died from Alzheimer's six years ago so she will not be able to see the release of my debut novel, Monarch Beach, or learnt that I received a three book deal with St. Martin's Press. The dedication on the front page - to my mother - seems like a small gesture for all that she gave me. But I know that she understands I couldn't have done any of it without her.


About The Author: 

Anita Hughes was born in Sydney, Australia and had a charmed childhood that included petting koala bears, riding the waves on Bondi Beach, and putting an occasional shrimp on the barbie. Her writing career began at the age of eight, when she won a national writing contest in THE AUSTRALIAN newspaper, and was named "One of Australia's Next Best Writers." (She still has the newspaper clipping).

She received a B.A. in English Literature with a minor in Creative Writing from Bard College, and attended UC Berkeley's Masters in Creative Writing program.

Monarch Beach is her debut novel, published by St. Martin's Press and will be released on June 19, 2012. A second novel, Market Street, will be published in April 2013.

She lives in Dana Point, CA with her family, where she interrupts her writing to watch the glorious sunsets.






BUY THE BOOK: Monarch Beach
*RELEASE DATE: JUNE 19, 2012*


Book Description: Monarch Beach


Anita Hughes' Monarch Beach is an absorbing debut novel about one woman's journey back to happiness after an affair splinters her perfect marriage and life - what it means to be loved, betrayed and to love again.

When Amanda Blick, a young mother and kindhearted San Francisco heiress, finds her gorgeous French chef husband wrapped around his sous-chef, she knows she must flee her life in order to rebuild it. The opportunity falls into her lap when her very lovable mother suggests Amanda and her young son, Max, spend the summer with her at the St. Regis Resort in Laguna Beach. With the waves right outside her windows and nothing more to worry about than finding the next relaxing thing to do, Amanda should be having the time of her life - and escaping the drama. But instead, she finds herself faced with a kind, older divorcee who showers her with attention ... and she discovers that the road to healing is never simple. This is the sometimes funny, sometimes bitter, but always moving story about mistakes and discoveries a woman makes when her perfect world is turned upside down.


Book Excerpt: Monarch Beach

                                                 Chapter One

The day my life changed forever started like any other Tuesday. I liked Tuesdays. My appointment book stayed blank on Tuesdays. Sometimes I wondered how the other days filled up so quickly. You’d be surprised how ladies’ auxiliary lunches, PTA committee meetings, and library fund-raising can occupy your time. Not to mention the karate lessons, piano, and chess club Max had after school. Like many stay-at-home moms I was a full-time chauffeur for my son and fund-raiser for his school. Tuesdays were mine. I started the day with a yoga class, usually followed by a fresh strawberry muffin at the Lemon Café. But this Tuesday, the Lemon Café was out of strawberry muffins, so I did something different. I made an unexpected visit to my husband’s restaurant and found him in the back room with his pants down and his legs wrapped around Ursula, his new chef. He tried pulling his pants up before I swung open the door, but it was a glass door. I had seen what I had seen: my tall, dark French husband sticking it to his blond Scandinavian chef. I thought, how cute, they had matching ponytails: Ursula’s was a long blond plait down her back, Andre’s was a short black ponytail I had always found very sexy. Apparently, Ursula did, too. I slammed the glass door so hard I heard it shatter behind me. I jumped in my car and tore away. Black Tuesday changed everything.

I didn’t drive far. My hands were shaking, I was afraid I would lose control of the wheel. While I wanted to kill Andre, and possibly Ursula, I didn’t have a personal death wish. I pulled into the parking lot at the post office, threw my purse under the seat, and started walking. I was still in my yoga clothes, so I looked like any other mother going for a morning hike. I left the parking lot and took long strides till I reached the lake, a walk that usually took me half an hour. That Tuesday I made it in sixteen minutes. I sat on a bench watching the ducks and took deep breaths. It was a beautiful spring day. The sun was warm, the sky a pale blue, and beds of purple and white daisies surrounded the lake. I often brought Max here on Saturdays while Andre worked. We tossed stale bread to the ducks. Max threw stones in the water and we would both be quiet so we could hear the “plop” sound when they landed.

That Tuesday the only sound I heard was my own sobs. I sounded like a stuck pig. And I felt like a complete idiot. What a cliché I was. Married for ten years, mother to a fantastic eight-year-old son, never suspecting that when Andre went to the restaurant on Tuesdays to “do the books” he was also doing the chef. 


I tried blaming myself. I should have protested when Andre wanted to hire a female chef. Ursula was a former sous chef at the Palace Hotel Dining Room in Montreux and she specialized in fondue. Andre’s restaurant specialized in fondue: cheese fondue, salmon fondue, chocolate fondue. But if he hadn’t hired Ursula I may have found him in the supply closet with Yvette the hostess, or Marie the cocktail waitress. I couldn’t even blame Ursula. Andre was thirty-five. He had olive skin and green eyes. He looked like a European film star, and he was her boss. Ursula had only been in California for six months. Maybe she thought it was part of the job description. The only person I could blame was Andre. 


I closed my eyes and remembered just a few nights ago, breezing into the restaurant on Andre’s arm on our date night. We had been to the movies and seen The Proposal. I loved romantic comedies where the couple overcame all sorts of obstacles on their path to happiness. We sat in the back of the theater and Andre slung one arm over my shoulder, and played with the hem of my skirt with his free hand. I slapped his hand away, pretending to focus on Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds, but I loved Andre’s attention. I loved knowing that after ten years together, he still wanted to put his hand up my skirt. 


I remember seeing Ursula fleetingly while I waited for Andre to give directions to his staff. Now I thought maybe the direction he gave was “kiss me harder,” while I politely discussed the savory flavor of fondue with one of the couples dining in the restaurant. 


                                                          * * * 


My sobs became hiccups and I recalled the last time my life changed in a single day. I was eighteen, and I had arrived home from school to find four envelopes addressed to me on the marble table in my parents’ foyer. 


“Good afternoon, Miss Amanda.” Our housekeeper swept up my backpack. “Your parents had to go out. I prepared a snack for you in the kitchen.” 


“Thanks, Rosemary. I’m not hungry. Please let me know when Mom and Dad come home.” I grabbed the envelopes and climbed the staircase to my bedroom. I sat on my bed looking at the view from the bay window. My bedroom was on the third floor of my parents’ house. My friends rolled their eyes when they came over and called it “the palace” under their breath. It had a full-sized ballroom where my parents held parties with seven-piece orchestras. In the basement there was a separate kitchen and living room for the staff: housekeeper, cook, laundress, gardener. I had the third floor to myself. My bedroom took up half the floor. It had a four-poster bed and a huge desk where I did my drawings. And it had the most amazing view of the San Francisco Bay. On clear days I watched hundreds of boats zip under the Golden Gate Bridge. My father had made his money himself. He wasn’t ashamed to spend it, and I refused to be ungrateful for the luxury that surrounded me. 


I held the envelopes printed with their college insignias and tried to decide which to open first. I hesitated. Should I wait for my parents to come home and open them together? I was their only child, and they were as excited as I was to know where I would spend the next four years. But I didn’t know where they’d gone, or when they’d be back. I opened the envelope from Stanford first. I read the letter carefully. I had been placed on their wait list. I took a deep breath and opened the envelope from Rhode Island School of Design. It was a long letter on dark gray stationery saying I had been accepted. 


I hugged it to my chest. My dream was to be a fashion designer: not a very popular goal at my college prep school. I had to beg my advisor to let me apply to RISD. I breathed a sigh of relief and opened the envelope from UC Berkeley. I had been accepted there as well. Not surprising, since the campus was dotted with benches and playing fields donated by my father. The last envelope was from Parsons in New York. I held it and closed my eyes. For the last two years I had dreamed of attending Parsons and interning for a fashion designer, being in the center of the fashion universe. I slit the envelope and opened my eyes slowly. I was in. I had been accepted at Parsons. I fell back on the bed and looked at my beautiful hand-painted ceiling. I felt my life was lining up perfectly like the gold stars painted on a night sky above me. There was a knock on the door and Rosemary poked her head in. “Excuse me, Miss Amanda. Your mother phoned. Your parents are almost home and they would like you to meet them in the library.” 


I gathered my college letters and ran down the two flights of stairs to the library. I sat in one of my father’s leather wingback chairs and debated how to tell my parents the news. They would hate to see me go across the country, but they would be thrilled. I had inherited my love of fashion from my mother. I spent countless afternoons and weekends as a child sitting in my mother’s closet and sketching her evening gowns. As I grew older, I would take the sketches back to my room and make small changes; erasing a shoulder strap here, adding an ivory bow there, until I created my own fantasy dresses. 


“Amanda showed me a design today that rivals Coco Chanel,” my mother said one evening to the ladies who arrived for a Junior League meeting. 


“Mom, nothing rivals Chanel,” I replied, secretly glowing. 


“Coco Chanel was once a young girl, too.” My mother poured my hot chocolate while the ladies drank tea in fragile porcelain cups. 


After I made polite conversation, and my mother dismissed me with a discreet nod of her head, I ran up to my room and looked at the sketch, wondering if it really did resemble Chanel. I vowed I would sketch and sew, and read and learn everything I could about fashion. One day my label would be found in Neiman’s and Bloomingdale’s and in chic boutiques on Fifth Avenue. 


                                                     * * * 


I clutched my acceptance letters, thinking that day was coming closer, but my parents walked in looking like they had seen the grim reaper. My mother entered the room first. She wore one of my favorite outfits: a pale pink St. John suit with gold cuffs. I looked at her face, usually so artfully made up that she glowed from across a room. Her cheeks were white and her eyes were swollen from crying. 


My father staggered in behind her. He was over six feet tall. He had white hair and his forehead was lined, but he usually moved with the confidence of someone who had come from nothing and created his own empire. That day he looked like an oversized schoolboy: scared and weak and wanting to hide behind his mother’s skirt. 


“I have the best news!” The words popped out of my mouth. 


“Your mother has some news,” my father said softly. 


“It’s not my news.” My mother shot an imploring look at my father. My parents had been married for twenty years. They met late in life: My father was busy building his empire and “forgot” to get married. My mother was a self-described “debutante left on the shelf.” They found each other at a symphony gala and married six weeks later. I could not remember them ever looking crossly at ...




Monarch Beach by Anita Hughes


Monarch Beach by Anita Hughes
Published By: St. Martin's Press
Release Date: June 19, 2012
Format: Paperback - 288 pages / Kindle - 341 KB / Nook - 282 KB
ISBN: 0312643047
ASIN: B006ZL8K9Q
Genre: Women's Fiction / Contemporary Fiction


About The Author:




Anita Hughes was born in Sydney, Australia and had a charmed childhood that included petting koala bears, riding the waves on Bondi Beach, and putting an occasional shrimp on the barbie. Her writing career began at the age of eight, when she won a national writing contest in THE AUSTRALIAN newspaper, and was named "One of Australia's Next Best Writers." (She still has the newspaper clipping).

She received a B.A. in English Literature with a minor in Creative Writing from Bard College, and attended UC Berkeley's Masters in Creative Writing program.

Monarch Beach is her debut novel, published by St. Martin's Press and will be released on June 19, 2012. A second novel, Market Street, will be published in April 2013.

She lives in Dana Point, CA with her family, where she interrupts her writing to watch the glorious sunsets.




BUY THE BOOK: Monarch Beach
*Release Date: June 19, 2012*


Disclaimer: I received a preview copy of the book from the author's publicist via NetGalley in exhcange for my honest review, and for hosting a virtual book release event on my book review blog site. 

Virtual Book Release Event: On Tuesday, June 19, 2012, Jersey Girl Book Reviews hosted a virtual book release event for Monarch Beach by author Anita Hughes. Anita participated in the virtual book event with an Author Guest Post on Jersey Girl Book Reviews.

Book Description:

Anita Hughes' Monarch Beach is an absorbing debut novel about one woman's journey back to happiness after an affair splinters her perfect marriage and life - what it means to be loved, betrayed and to love again.

When Amanda Blick, a young mother and kindhearted San Francisco heiress, finds her gorgeous French chef husband wrapped around his sous-chef, she knows she must flee her life in order to rebuild it. The opportunity falls into her lap when her very lovable mother suggests Amanda and her young son, Max, spend the summer with her at the St. Regis Resort in Laguna Beach. With the waves right outside her windows and nothing more to worry about than finding the next relaxing thing to do, Amanda should be having the time of her life - and escaping the drama. But instead, she finds herself faced with a kind, older divorcee who showers her with attention ... and she discovers that the road to healing is never simple. This is the sometimes funny, sometimes bitter, but always moving story about mistakes and discoveries a woman makes when her perfect world is turned upside down.


Book Excerpt: 

                                              Chapter One

The day my life changed forever started like any other Tuesday. I liked Tuesdays. My appointment book stayed blank on Tuesdays. Sometimes I wondered how the other days filled up so quickly. You’d be surprised how ladies’ auxiliary lunches, PTA committee meetings, and library fund-raising can occupy your time. Not to mention the karate lessons, piano, and chess club Max had after school. Like many stay-at-home moms I was a full-time chauffeur for my son and fund-raiser for his school. Tuesdays were mine. I started the day with a yoga class, usually followed by a fresh strawberry muffin at the Lemon Café. But this Tuesday, the Lemon Café was out of strawberry muffins, so I did something different. I made an unexpected visit to my husband’s restaurant and found him in the back room with his pants down and his legs wrapped around Ursula, his new chef. He tried pulling his pants up before I swung open the door, but it was a glass door. I had seen what I had seen: my tall, dark French husband sticking it to his blond Scandinavian chef. I thought, how cute, they had matching ponytails: Ursula’s was a long blond plait down her back, Andre’s was a short black ponytail I had always found very sexy. Apparently, Ursula did, too. I slammed the glass door so hard I heard it shatter behind me. I jumped in my car and tore away. Black Tuesday changed everything.

I didn’t drive far. My hands were shaking, I was afraid I would lose control of the wheel. While I wanted to kill Andre, and possibly Ursula, I didn’t have a personal death wish. I pulled into the parking lot at the post office, threw my purse under the seat, and started walking. I was still in my yoga clothes, so I looked like any other mother going for a morning hike. I left the parking lot and took long strides till I reached the lake, a walk that usually took me half an hour. That Tuesday I made it in sixteen minutes. I sat on a bench watching the ducks and took deep breaths. It was a beautiful spring day. The sun was warm, the sky a pale blue, and beds of purple and white daisies surrounded the lake. I often brought Max here on Saturdays while Andre worked. We tossed stale bread to the ducks. Max threw stones in the water and we would both be quiet so we could hear the “plop” sound when they landed.

That Tuesday the only sound I heard was my own sobs. I sounded like a stuck pig. And I felt like a complete idiot. What a cliché I was. Married for ten years, mother to a fantastic eight-year-old son, never suspecting that when Andre went to the restaurant on Tuesdays to “do the books” he was also doing the chef.

I tried blaming myself. I should have protested when Andre wanted to hire a female chef. Ursula was a former sous chef at the Palace Hotel Dining Room in Montreux and she specialized in fondue. Andre’s restaurant specialized in fondue: cheese fondue, salmon fondue, chocolate fondue. But if he hadn’t hired Ursula I may have found him in the supply closet with Yvette the hostess, or Marie the cocktail waitress. I couldn’t even blame Ursula. Andre was thirty-five. He had olive skin and green eyes. He looked like a European film star, and he was her boss. Ursula had only been in California for six months. Maybe she thought it was part of the job description. The only person I could blame was Andre.

I closed my eyes and remembered just a few nights ago, breezing into the restaurant on Andre’s arm on our date night. We had been to the movies and seen The Proposal. I loved romantic comedies where the couple overcame all sorts of obstacles on their path to happiness. We sat in the back of the theater and Andre slung one arm over my shoulder, and played with the hem of my skirt with his free hand. I slapped his hand away, pretending to focus on Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds, but I loved Andre’s attention. I loved knowing that after ten years together, he still wanted to put his hand up my skirt.

I remember seeing Ursula fleetingly while I waited for Andre to give directions to his staff. Now I thought maybe the direction he gave was “kiss me harder,” while I politely discussed the savory flavor of fondue with one of the couples dining in the restaurant.

                                                      * * *

My sobs became hiccups and I recalled the last time my life changed in a single day. I was eighteen, and I had arrived home from school to find four envelopes addressed to me on the marble table in my parents’ foyer.

“Good afternoon, Miss Amanda.” Our housekeeper swept up my backpack. “Your parents had to go out. I prepared a snack for you in the kitchen.”

“Thanks, Rosemary. I’m not hungry. Please let me know when Mom and Dad come home.” I grabbed the envelopes and climbed the staircase to my bedroom. I sat on my bed looking at the view from the bay window. My bedroom was on the third floor of my parents’ house. My friends rolled their eyes when they came over and called it “the palace” under their breath. It had a full-sized ballroom where my parents held parties with seven-piece orchestras. In the basement there was a separate kitchen and living room for the staff: housekeeper, cook, laundress, gardener. I had the third floor to myself. My bedroom took up half the floor. It had a four-poster bed and a huge desk where I did my drawings. And it had the most amazing view of the San Francisco Bay. On clear days I watched hundreds of boats zip under the Golden Gate Bridge. My father had made his money himself. He wasn’t ashamed to spend it, and I refused to be ungrateful for the luxury that surrounded me.

I held the envelopes printed with their college insignias and tried to decide which to open first. I hesitated. Should I wait for my parents to come home and open them together? I was their only child, and they were as excited as I was to know where I would spend the next four years. But I didn’t know where they’d gone, or when they’d be back. I opened the envelope from Stanford first. I read the letter carefully. I had been placed on their wait list. I took a deep breath and opened the envelope from Rhode Island School of Design. It was a long letter on dark gray stationery saying I had been accepted.

I hugged it to my chest. My dream was to be a fashion designer: not a very popular goal at my college prep school. I had to beg my advisor to let me apply to RISD. I breathed a sigh of relief and opened the envelope from UC Berkeley. I had been accepted there as well. Not surprising, since the campus was dotted with benches and playing fields donated by my father.

The last envelope was from Parsons in New York. I held it and closed my eyes. For the last two years I had dreamed of attending Parsons and interning for a fashion designer, being in the center of the fashion universe. I slit the envelope and opened my eyes slowly. I was in. I had been accepted at Parsons. I fell back on the bed and looked at my beautiful hand-painted ceiling. I felt my life was lining up perfectly like the gold stars painted on a night sky above me. There was a knock on the door and Rosemary poked her head in. “Excuse me, Miss Amanda. Your mother phoned. Your parents are almost home and they would like you to meet them in the library.” 


I gathered my college letters and ran down the two flights of stairs to the library. I sat in one of my father’s leather wingback chairs and debated how to tell my parents the news. They would hate to see me go across the country, but they would be thrilled. I had inherited my love of fashion from my mother. I spent countless afternoons and weekends as a child sitting in my mother’s closet and sketching her evening gowns. As I grew older, I would take the sketches back to my room and make small changes; erasing a shoulder strap here, adding an ivory bow there, until I created my own fantasy dresses. 


“Amanda showed me a design today that rivals Coco Chanel,” my mother said one evening to the ladies who arrived for a Junior League meeting. 


“Mom, nothing rivals Chanel,” I replied, secretly glowing. 


“Coco Chanel was once a young girl, too.” My mother poured my hot chocolate while the ladies drank tea in fragile porcelain cups. 


After I made polite conversation, and my mother dismissed me with a discreet nod of her head, I ran up to my room and looked at the sketch, wondering if it really did resemble Chanel. I vowed I would sketch and sew, and read and learn everything I could about fashion. One day my label would be found in Neiman’s and Bloomingdale’s and in chic boutiques on Fifth Avenue. 


                                                       * * * 


I clutched my acceptance letters, thinking that day was coming closer, but my parents walked in looking like they had seen the grim reaper. My mother entered the room first. She wore one of my favorite outfits: a pale pink St. John suit with gold cuffs. I looked at her face, usually so artfully made up that she glowed from across a room. Her cheeks were white and her eyes were swollen from crying. 


My father staggered in behind her. He was over six feet tall. He had white hair and his forehead was lined, but he usually moved with the confidence of someone who had come from nothing and created his own empire. That day he looked like an oversized schoolboy: scared and weak and wanting to hide behind his mother’s skirt. 


“I have the best news!” The words popped out of my mouth. 


“Your mother has some news,” my father said softly. 


“It’s not my news.” My mother shot an imploring look at my father. My parents had been married for twenty years. They met late in life: My father was busy building his empire and “forgot” to get married. My mother was a self-described “debutante left on the shelf.” They found each other at a symphony gala and married six weeks later. I could not remember them ever looking crossly at ...


My Book Review:


Amanda Blick grew up as an only child in a wealthy San Francisco family. She had dreams of going to the prestigious Parsons School of Technology in New York City to study fashion design, but her dream was placed on hold when her beloved father was diagnosed with terminal liver cancer. Putting her dreams of NY on hold, she attended her father's alma mater, UC Berkeley to be close to her parents. Her father passed away two weeks before her college graduation. Once again Amanda planned to go to NY in the fall and pursue her dreams of becoming a fashion designer, but her life took another direction when she met handsome French restaurant owner, Andre Blick on the 4th of July. A whirlwind romance led to their engagement by summers end and a small wedding on Thanksgiving.

For ten years life was wonderful for Amanda, she had a strong loving marriage that produced a son who had become the center of her universe, and she enjoyed her role as a stay-at-home mom. But that world changed in a blink of an eye, when she went to her husband's restaurant and caught him having sex with Ursula, the new fondue sous chef. Now at 32 years old, with her life turned upside down and the illusion of a happy marriage dispelled by her husband's infidelity for the past eight years, Amanda has to make a decision on what to do with her marriage and life.

Amanda's mother offers to take Amanda and her son Max on a summer vacation to the posh St. Regis Resort in Laguna Beach. A summer away from the shattered mess of a marriage is just what Amanda needed to figure of what to do with her life. Amanda's summer of healing begins when she meets a handsome older man, Edward Jonas, who is an ex-attorney now seafood restaurant owner, and along the way she learns that she can put her life back together again.

Monarch Beach is a poignant story of love, betrayal and redemption. The story is set in San Francisco and Laguna Beach, California, and is told in the first person narrative by the story's protagonist, Amanda. Amanda takes the reader along on her journey of redemption with flashbacks on her life interwoven with the present time. The storyline is a realistic and thoughtful look at a woman's journey to put her shattered life back together again.

The story contains very detailed descriptions of Amanda's wealthy cultured lifestyle of designer clothes and decadent cuisine. The vivid descriptions of San Francisco and Laguna Beach reads like a tourist guide with rich details of the Golden Gate Bridge, white beaches, ocean breezes, palm trees, and opulent decadence.

The author provides the story with a variety of characters that are realistic and complex with flaws that the readers can easily relate to. The predominance of Amanda's wealth throughout the story may tend to lead the reader to not feel compassion for her, but how can one not feel compassion for someone who has their life as they knew it shattered by infidelity and betrayal? I think the author does a wonderful job of balancing Amanda's wealth with her genuine down-to-earth personality, and I was able to set aside the opulence and embrace Amanda's journey of rebuilding her life.

Monarch Beach is the debut novel for author Anita Hughes. It is a captivating story of a woman's journey to rebuild her life after a devastating betrayal. This story is rich in detail and will engage the reader to embrace Amanda's journey with compassion and understanding, and has an ending that is surprisingly unpredictable. I found this novel to be an enjoyable summer read, and would recommend it to fans of the Women's Fiction and Chick Lit genres.


RATING: 4 STARS ****










Monday, June 18, 2012

Author Guest Post: Colleen Collins, Author of The Zen Man

Jersey Girl Book Reviews welcomes Colleen Collins, author of The Zen Man!





Be Your Own Investigator: Four Free Online Resources
By Colleen Collins


Besides being a multi-published author, for the last nine years I've also co-owned a detective agency with my husband (probably no surprise my current book, The Zen Man, features a private eye man-and-woman team). As a private investigator, I've discovered dozens of of online research sites that are handy for such tasks as locating people, digging up historical data and finding owners of cell phone numbers. For my guest blog at Jersey Girl Book Reviews, I thought readers might enjoy learning about four of these online resources for their own use. Best of all, most of these resources are free!

Search the deep web with www.123.people.com: With more than 50 million searches each month, 123people.com claims to be the largest real-time people search engine in the world. It's also what is known as a "deep web" search engine, which means it often finds data not indexed by more traditional search engines. Search results might include images, network profiles, blog entries, documents, e-mails, addresses and phone numbers. 

Note: Some advertisers, such as peoplefinders.com, promote pay-for people search services on 123people.com. The problem with such pay-for services is that there's no guarantee how relevant or current the information is, and there's no live source to interpret the results. My advice: Don't waste your money. If you're tempted to pay money to one of those online services, you're better off hiring a professional private investigator.

Research multiple social networking sites at www.SocialMention.com: According to Silicon.com, there are nearly 4.5 billion active social networking and other online accounts! Therefore, it can be beneficial to conduct a search in a social media search engine, such as SocialMention, that concurrently checks dozens of social networking sites. Search results include blogs, networks, images and news.

Explore your family history. Different online sites offer comprehensive genealogical search resources and tips, for example Family Search, a free service provided by The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, which also includes research courses and discussion forums; GenealogyBank, a subscription service that provides access to online materials such as modern obituaries, historical newspapers, military documents and government papers; and Ancestry.com, another subscription service although you can sign up for a free 14-day trial. Genealogical records include census records, immigration records, history records and U.S. vital records. There's also a link to a 1-800 number that connects you to a family history consultant. 

Be a Master Google Searcher. Google is still the most comprehensive, public search engine available, and it offers a handy "cheat sheet" with dozens of tips and techniques for researching the Internet, from finding movie reviews to locating the full texts of online books. Google cheat sheet: http://www.googleguide.com/advanced_operators_reference.html.

My husband and I also write tips and techniques for writers, researchers, and people simply curious about the world of private investigators at our blog Guns, Gams, and Gunshoes: http://www.writingpis.wordpress.com

Thank you to Kathleen Anderson and Jersey Girl Book Reviews for hosting my guest blog!

To read more about Colleen's current book The Zen Man, a murder mystery with romantic elements, visit The Zen Man book site at http://thezenman.com/. Colleen is currently at work on a novel featuring a private investigator heroine, titled The Next Right Thing, scheduled for release by Harlequin in early 2013.


About The Author:


Colleen Collins is an award-winning author who's written 20 novels and anthologies for Harlequin (including a romantic paranormal thriller for Dorchester, writing as Cassandra Collins). Her books have placed first in the Colorado Gold, Romancing the Rockies, and Top of the Peak contests, and placed in the finals for the Holt Medallion, Coeur de Bois Readers Choice, Award of Excellence, More than Magic, and Romance Writers of America RITA contests.

After graduating from the University of California Santa Barbara, Colleen worked as a film production assistant, inprov comic, telecommunications manager at the RAND Corporation, technical writer/editor, speech writer, and private investigator. All these experiences play into her writing.

She's a member of the Mystery Writers of America (MWA), Private Eye Writers of America (PWA), the Romance Writers of America (RWA), Novelists, Inc. (NINC), and sits on the board of the Rocky Mountain MWA. She's also a member of the National Council of Investigation & Security Services (NCISS) and the Professional Private Investigators Association of Colorado.

When not sleuthing, Colleen's working on a time-traveling PI series, co-teaching "Writing PIs in Novels" with  her investigative business partner, and envisioning how Nick and Nora would behave in the 21st century.


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Book Description: The Zen Man


Just as washed-up criminal defense attorney, life-long Deadhead (nickname "The Zen Man"), and current PI Rick Levine decides to get relicensed as a lawyer, he's charged with killing one and ends up and ends up in the slammer with a half-million bail. 

Released on bond, Rick and his girlfriend Laura have 30 days to find the real killer. In the course of their investigations, they dig for dirt among Denver's shady legal backrooms to its tony corporate centers. Dodging bullets, a kidnapping, trumped-up charges and the FBI's unwanted intervention, Rick and Laura continue tracking key suspects who have motive ... eventually learning that true redemption begins at home.





Book Excerpt: The Zen Man


                                                       One

“The next person who says Merry Christmas to me, I’ll kill ‘em.”
 -The Thin Man, 1934

 The obstacle is the path.
-Zen proverb

Five years of being clean and sober nearly tanked as I watched a bad piece of my past trudging across the parking lot in my direction. She was far enough away that I couldn’t make out her features, or her companion’s for that matter, but I knew the car parked behind them better than I knew my own soul. Losing that car had hurt worse than losing the house, the marriage, maybe even my career. Funny how a lump of tricked-out metal can do that to a man.

I glanced at the clock. In an hour, Laura and I would start greeting a school of fifty-five sharks from Colorado’s Criminal Defense Association–CrimDefs to those in the know–who were spending their annual retreat at our lodge, technically Laura’s as she’d put up the dough, the Dinosaur Foot Bed and Breakfast and Hot Springs. We’d wanted to name it something less Barney-like, but this area had been called Dinosaur Foot—after the dinosaur prints and fossils in the region–for generations, going back to the Ute tribe who’d conducted spiritual journeys to the area, so it’d seemed smart to keep the name.

“Something wrong?” Laura stood next to me at the kitchen sink, wiping dry another holly-and-berry etched wine glass for our upcoming guests. She wore tight jeans—the kind of tight that could make a man almost forget his troubles–and a blue cashmere cardigan that matched her eyes. But the best was her face. When she frothed her hair and slicked red on her pouty lips, like she’d done today, she looked like Grace Slick in her prime before Jefferson Airplane nose-dived.

Laura, at thirty-five, was definitely in her prime, too. But underneath that hot-rock-chick Slick surface, beat the heart of a geek who loved tinkering with computers, a skill she’d applied as a senior manager at the telecommunications giant TeleForce, headquartered in nearby Denver, until her recent early retirement. One of those forced situations due to company downsizing.

When I didn’t answer, she craned her neck to peer out the window over the sink, leaning so close I could smell her familiar scent, a honey-lavender perfume that, depending on my mood, could craze me or chill me.

“What, those people heading up from the parking lot?”

“Yeah.” It was a long trek from the lot, several hundred feet that included a lung-stretching hike up stairs to reach the higher ground of the lodge. I’ve been tempted to put a sign down there—“Warning 150 steps ahead”—because after making it to the top, one feels like a basketball player at the foul line toward the end of a gut-busting game. Fortunately, after reaching the grounds of the lodge, the only other exertion they’d experience might be hiking in nearby wildflower meadows during the summer, snowshoeing in the winter, or indoor sports all year around in one of the lodge rooms or rustic cabins that edged several natural hot spring pools.

“Probably early arrivals for the retreat,” Laura murmured. “Know them?”

“One of ‘em.”

“You must have super-hero eyesight because all I see is a short blonde and a tall man.”

“You’re not looking at the whole picture.”

Laura glanced over her shoulder at me, her left eye squinting. “What?”

“Check the parking lot.” 

We call it a parking lot, but it’s more like a monster-size circle of chewed-up gravel at the bottom of the hill. Currently, three cars were parked there–Laura’s blue Dodge Durango, my gray ’90 Pontiac Firebird, and a sleek yellow number that glistened like a molded cube of melting butter under the late afternoon sun.

“Who in their right mind would paint a car crayon yellow?”

“That’s no mere car, that’s a 2002 Millennium Yellow Z06 Corvette,” I said, feeling a creeping tightness in my jaw. “And the color is called competition yellow, not crayon.”

A gust of wind triggered a chaotic metallic tune from the wind chimes dangling outside the kitchen window.

She settled back onto the heels of her Skechers, those plump lips forming a small “o” of realization. “So that’s…”

“Mellow Yellow.” License plate used to say that, too. MLO YLO. From what people had told me, it now read WAS HIS. 

Her eyes glistened with a you-poor-little-boy look a thirty-six-year-old man shouldn’t like.

It’d been Laura’s idea to host the CrimDefs’ retreat because it’d be a great way to kick off our grand opening, but I think she was more interested in my having an opportunity to pitch Levine Investigations to potential clients. I mean, what better investigator for a lawyer to hire than a former lawyer? Nevertheless, I’d fought the idea of hosting the retreat at our place with all the fury a decades-long Deadhead can muster–which meant I’d mumbled and shrugged a lot. The problem is ninety percent of the CrimDefs feel one of two ways about me—they either hate my guts or view me as rabidly unstable–so the whole notion of my pitching anything to them was akin to defending myself by tossing veggie burritos to fend off bullets from a firing squad.

But Laura kept reminding me no PI in the state had my credentials, namely eight years experience as a high-profile trial attorney, and that although I couldn’t give legal advice to clients, I could anticipate most lawyers’ legal needs before they arose. All of which meant I could charge more per hour than my gumshoe competitors. Such money logic inspired me to pitch my services. 

That is, until that blonde, my ex-wife, arrived on the scene in Mellow.

In the years since we’d been divorced, one of her favorite pastimes had been announcing loudly and often what an exceptionally irresponsible, deranged asshole I was. I’ll cop to some past behaviors, but now that I was clean and sober I liked proving to the world that I had it together again.

“So this means the blonde who’ll soon be at our door is Wicked.”

Short for Wicked Wench of the West, my favorite reference to said ex. The bad piece of history who’d make damn sure dirt stuck to my rep this weekend just when I’d hoped to sway a little professional sentiment my way. I rinsed another soapy wine glass under the kitchen faucet. Oh, if rinsing off the debris of my past were so easy.

“Who’s that man she’s with?” Laura accepted the dripping glass from me.

“Some dude headed down a feelin-bad road.” They’d finally reached the top of the stairs, undoubtedly winded, which accounted for their snail’s pace along the curving cement walk to the lodge’s front door. As they drew closer, a wave of betrayal mixed with pity washed over me.

“Sam Wexler,” I muttered. 

Laura froze, holding a half-dried glass mid-air. “Your former law partner?”

I grunted affirmatively.

“Wicked is Sam’s date this weekend?” She frowned. “Isn’t he married?” 

“Guess wifey’s out of town.”

I thought about Sam’s wife Fern and her uncomplicated, small-town ways. She canned peaches, knitted sweaters, raised the children. Just add water and mix the perfect housewife, which is why I’d always thought he’d married her. She was the earth while he played with fire.

Laura shook her head slowly as she set aside the dried glass. She despised people who cheated on their partners, a fact I knew ‘cause that’s how we met. Almost a year ago, she’d found me in the online yellow pages under “private investigators” and hired me to follow her fiancé, whom she suspected of cheating. He was, she dumped him, and I promptly asked her out. Best snap decision I ever made.

“Wicked’s a lawyer, right?”

“Criminal defense, just like Sam and everyone else registered for the retreat.” Just like I used to be.

“Considering how many CrimDefs didn’t want to attend because of–”

“My drug-addled rep–” 

“Actually I was going to say due to winter travel…anyway, considering Wicked’s unresolved anger over your divorce, it surprises me she decided to show up. Of course, there’s plenty of room.”

With six chalet-style cabins that accommodated four to six people each, and twelve guest rooms upstairs, all with fold-out couches, we could’ve easily fit another dozen or so attendees.

“No wonder Sam reserved an entire cabin for himself,” I mumbled. Poor Fern.

“If Wicked plans to stay for the entire retreat, I’ll add an extra charge to his room.”

“Make it enough to cover the mortgage.”

Laura laughed, a throaty, unrestrained sound that always gave me a rush.

“I’m sorry she and Mellow showed up.” She brushed a light kiss against my cheek. “Didn’t you say a few days ago that the world is ruled by letting things take their course?”

“Stole that line from Lao-Tzu, who obviously never had Wicked steamrolling toward his front door.”

Laura smiled knowingly. “This weekend will be okay. Trust me.”

Anxiety did a mean little tap-dance on my nerves. I might quote the cool dudes, but I’m a worrier at heart.

The doorbell rang.

Our Rottweiler Mavis, named after Mavis Staples of the Staples Singers, ran helter-skelter into the kitchen, her nails scrabbling against the linoleum floor, barking and snarling. If looks could kill, Mavis would be a serial murderer, but she was actually the biggest wuss I’d ever met, human or canine.

“We can’t have Mavis greeting all our guests like that,” Laura murmured, wiping her hands on a dish towel.

“No, just select ones.”

Mavis continued the vicious-beast act as all three of us headed into the adjoining room, the foyer of the B&B where people checked in. Laura had decorated this entrance-way with a dinosaur motif—Jurassic foliage wallpaper, dinosaur foot stools, even a 3D T-rex coming out of the wall. Within the opening of its mouth she’d inserted a red-covered table which looked liked the dino’s tongue, on which she’d laid brochures and giveaways for guests. In somebody else’s hands, this could’ve looked like Jurassic Park on Crack, but ever-capable Laura had managed to give it, as well as the guest rooms and cabins, a classy prehistoric ambiance.

I plastered on my best smile and opened the door.

Winter breezes swirled through the doorway, carrying scents of pine and Sam’s pricey cologne, an oriental cedar number I recalled from our shared law-office days. I’d never needed to ask our receptionist where Sam was because that scent had always announced his comings and goings.

He towered over us at six-three, maybe four. But then when you’re five-eight, anything over six foot is gratuitous. He wore a designer look that screamed I’m hip and make big bucks, which meant Sam had come straight from court. He’d always had the tall, dark, handsome angle going for him, although if I wasn’t mistaken he’d started dying his thinning hair. Made me feel smug about the thick, curly mass on my head, even if it was prematurely gray.

“Hey, Zen Man.” Sam smiled sheepishly as he put his arm around Wicked’s shoulders.

She wore cream-colored slacks that didn’t match her beige sweater, which was too low cut and clingy for court so I guessed she’d gussied up for her date, tryst, whatever was going on with Sam. I almost felt sad seeing the bloat in her face and the watery red in her eyes. Drinking too much again, chased with a favorite pill or three. Used to be one of our favorite pastimes, getting plastered as an antidote to the stress of trying tough cases and managing demanding clients. Or so we’d told ourselves.

“Zen Man?” asked Laura, a funny smile on her face.

I shrugged. “You know how I sometimes toss off Zen quotes.” Hadn’t been called the nickname in so long, I’d almost forgotten about it.

“But it wasn’t just the quotes, it was the je ne sais quoi you gave them that made you the Zen Man.” Sam’s wide mouth elongated into a smile. “Remember?”

“Sort of.”

“Oh.” The smile leveled out. “I guess you were too…”

“Yeah. Probably.”

I watched Mavis sniff the pocket of Sam’s jacket as he introduced Wicked to Laura, explaining how it was a last-minute decision for her to attend the conference, she’d be staying in his cabin, blah-dy blah-dy.

“Nice to meet you,” Wicked cooed, extending a red-nailed hand to shake Laura’s. A stack of bracelets on her wrists jangled, reminding me how she’d always worn too much jewelry, as though to show the world how successful or loved she was. When our gazes snagged, I swore I caught a frightened look in her eyes. Took me by surprise. Couldn’t recall ever seeing Wicked frightened of something, except the possibility of missing a shoe sale at Nordstrom. But the look quickly disappeared, like the flash of a shark’s fin in deep waters.